One things I noticed lately is how quickly I tend to give my power away. I’m quick to down play my capabilities because in some cases I want to be “humble” but within that humility, I find that I criticize myself.
I recently started doing these videos of people water skiing trying to capture their amazing stories and the first one done, which came out good, I showed someone before I posted it
Before she even saw it, I went into the “now remember, this is my first one.”
I thought it was a good video, but I didn’t know if SHE was going to think it was a good video.
I wanted to criticize myself before anyone else could criticize me.
She looked at me and said, “so what, you’re just going to give your power away before I even see the video?”
My first thought…”f*** you”
My second thought, she’s right…damn it.
This started me thinking about power, and where I give it away. Since I spend so much time at the lake skiing, I think back on all the times I criticized myself.
I criticized myself so much, I went into “retirement” which looked a lot like kicking my ski off, throwing it in the boat, throwing my gloves down, and pouting the rest of the day because I didn’t ski as well as I wanted to.
Instead of looking back on the set, and saying, or even asking someone else what the problem was, I just went into the place of “I’ll never be good enough” so why not just quit now and save myself some time.
This thread, this theme of giving my power away translates into so many areas of my life.
I’ve talked to a lot of women in this sport. Many of them forget how amazing it is doing what we do on the water.
If they are “beginner” skiers, they down play their abilities on the water forgetting the amount of dedication, training, and how many of us had to overcome some of our fears that stand in our way just to be able to get behind a boat and hold on to a rope for dear life.
Holding onto a rope, pulling ourselves out of the water, and pushing ourselves beyond what we think we are capable of to go around these orange buoys is kind of a big deal. But we forget that sometimes.
As my journey continues, my commitment to myself is pay attention to where I give my power away, and maybe try to not do that so much.
I have to remember how strong I really am. I have to OWN how strong I am. Not just in the physical way, but the mental way. Telling someone else what I am capable of isn’t bragging, it’s owning my capabilities and believing in my capabilities.
What about you? Where do you give your power away?